New Year

Everyone believes that the New Year should start with a bang. 

So did I.

Unfortunately, it didn't happen the way I had it planned. And with my work-in-progress temper, when things ran out of course, I flipped. Though I must say, I regretted the way I reacted that day but it's too late to turn back time. There were a lot of angry tears, because I wanted to show how much I still care, how much I still want to be part of them and how much I wanted to be involved in the things they do. Sadly, due to no communication, it led to miscommunication. The stubborn girl in me took over and I distanced myself away driven by anger and disappointment. 

The only good thing that happened that day was the bf's homecoming. The mood lit up when I saw him, but I felt bad I had to drag him down with the moods. 

When I thought about things I began to wonder why is it that I'm feeling like this? Is it the need to control? Or is it that I merely only wanted to feel....

accepted?

I shan't be so pessimistic I know. Well.. I won't be. I'll try my best to work things out as soon as I get rid of this anger inside. It's not worth living life feeling ugly inside. And definitely not worth destroying relationships with the people you love because of miscommunication. How long it'll take I don't know but I do know deep inside, I still love them all dearly and I want things to work out.  




Stay positive Sharon!